abc day 1 tomorrow (again)

ok well im starting abc over tomorrow. i was going to start today but i completely fucked up. so this is going to my online abc diary. and i am going to (try) to post every day! wish me luck!!!

ehhhh

today was alright. im getting fatter tho. :( i ate out for lunch every day. i had subway today. :( and gardettos. fmllllllllllll theres a dance tonight. i wanna go but idk... i dont think my boyfriend wants to go. :( i wanna be skinnnnnnnnny

fml

ok wellllll today i had like a mental break down in front of my boyfriend. fml

i had 2 bags of gardettos (240 each!!) fml

i had (delicious) sonic cheese bacon ranch tots w/ sweet tea. fml

i had 4 pieces of pizza. fml.

im jealous of my best friend. fml

im jealous of all my friends. fml

my boyfriend wants to go to a titty bar. fml

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499 calories

yay im 1 calorie under!!!! its day 1 of abc and im a freaking falure (kinda) i had a cookie- 60, rootbeer - 120 subway -400 something chips- 140 which adds up to like 700 something. i burned 128 at school and i ran for 10 minutes at 5 mph and i burned 100 cals :) so im all good. but i cant eat anything tonight. if i do i need to burn it off. right now im drinking pepsi maxx :) yay for 0 calorie drinks!!! and im watching wife swap :) fav show!! gotta love lifetime.

i have to study my bio terms. blehhhhhhh test thursday. wish me luck!!

school

ok so its SENIOR YEAR!!! whoop whoop!!! and so far its going good really. i really like my classes. my boyfriend is getting on my nerves. he is very very very very very very very controlling. :\ it kinda ruins my day and my friends are like why do you let him do that? but i dont know. i wish he didnt. but he doesnt care what i want. :\

starting over

school is starting thursday. my diet/competition is starting tomorrow. me and my friend shelby are having a competition on who can lose the most. we are around the same weight. its going to last to may. we both wanna lost 60 lbs. that would make me around 110 and her about 105. i want to lose 30 by xmas. its really not that hard because its like 6 lbs a month. or .2 lbs a day. which i can totally do! im really excited. but im so scared to measure and weigh tomorrow. im such a fucking fat cow. i am disgusting.

wish me luck!!! <3

NEW SITE!!!

woohoo there is an awesome new ed site!!!

http://makemetheenyoftheworld.webs.com/

check it out bitches ;)

(sorry i called you bitches im watching mean girls)

wow...its been a while. i still havent lost weight. i was hoping to this weekend because i got my wisdom teeth removed but i still ate everything. :( i am such a fucking fat cow. i wanna be skinny. i told my boyfriend i am going to lose 60 lbs by next summer no matter what. i dont care what it takes. school starts thursday. im excited cuz its so much easier to starve. i want to be the girl that all the guys check out. not the guys girlfriend standing there looking fat.